You know when you've been on a Merry-Go-Round, your coming to the end, and it starts to slow down. The ponies are still floating up and down, but now its slower.....and slower....and....slower and it starts to feel like it just will keep getting slower and never actually stop. That is what I feel like. I have so much wonderful hope for the near future, hope that our lives will change for the better and we'll start down that road that we want to be on. I get excited thinking of improvements that we can make to the house and land, thinks we can get that we have always dreamed of, and all the little details that we never even dared to think about until now. It's so close, so very very close, but I feel like it will never actually ever become "now." Maybe its a dream and the cat will wake me up as soon as I get to the good part. Ugh. I just want to quit planning and wishing and dreaming, I want to DO, I want to LIVE.
I know, I'll just have to wait a little longer, but its so close I can Feel it, but I just can't touch it yet.
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